I got a purple mani 2 days ago and my dark & mysterious nails inspired my inner rocker chick to come out and rock on today.

Rock on!

To celebrate the rockness I straighted my hair pin straight, wore only grey and black, a bunch of silver rings and almost raccoonish emo-fied black eye-shadow and eyeliner.

WOOOO! ROCK ON!

p.s. Speaking of “Wooo” by the way, reminds me of the “woo-girls” episode from How I Met Your Mother. How genius!

p.p.s. I think my black makeup has started to seep into my soul because I’m getting more and more emo and angry as the day goes on. Everyone is bothering me today and all I want to do is yell at people, roll my eyes and throw around a lot of attitude right now.

I feel like a total bag lady today. As I left my apt this morning hauling out my small but compactly packed heavy ass bag, I internally gave myself a disapproving shake of the head. I’m hereby listing all the contents of it so you can get an idea of the ridiculousness of it:

my ratty old bag

• My beautiful beautiful Wallet – (thanks Hotpesh!)
• Shades
• Pink cell also silver blackberry
• Blistex
• 2 lip glosses
• Small makeup bag full to the brim
• Lotion
• 2 bars of Toblerone
• Ipod nano
• Pen
• 320 gig hard drive
• Digital camera
• Knee high boots (yes I stuffed those in there too)
• Gold pendant – gift for high school bff’s mom
• NYU course list
• expense check
• hand wipes
• Dr Scholls Blister block stick
• Yoga clothes

Image by i heart him via Flickr

I can’t believe that the inspiration for this post comes entirely from Heroes! Am I getting nerdier? Either way, at least there is inspiration now, however geeky the source of it might be.

“We are all at war with ourselves… the trick is figuring out how to be on the winning side.” – Gabriel/Sylar, Heroes “Origins” Episode, November 17, 2008

This line that Sylar so sexily delivers to Elle (mmm Sylar…), somehow plucked this deep meaning out of me. Even in a non-heroic way, we are all in some sort of war against ourselves. In this battle, we keep hurting ourselves, over and over and over again. That’s why, us girls (you know I’m talking to you, my fellow pea in our little pod) keep chasing after men give them our attention and affection and 75% of our thoughts and precious brain power only to have them hurt us by giving back nothing but attitude and game playing.

In this idiotic war against ourselves, we throw away things that are good for us like friendships and people. This is why we make friends with crazy bitchy girls who get us into trouble every time we go out with them, and why we get drunk to the point where our bodies are hating right back at us. This is why we eat junk food and ice cream instead of going for jogs! And that’s why we procrastinate.

And how can you truly win this war without losing as well since both the fighting sides are 2 parts of yourself? Is that why we feel this stupid urge to “go find ourselves”, hurt ourselves, put our bodies, minds and hearts through torture for and by guys, for and by ourselves, yell at our mothers, stop talking to our dads, and break the hearts of those who love us most for those who might not love us at all. (I can’t believe I’ve made my mother cry… I’m sorry mum, and I will probably go to hell for it, and I type this with one eye slightly tearing, hehe)

But that’s the thing… how can you feel what happiness is without knowing sadness? And maybe I’ll just have to live in a steady stream of contentment, carrying a little sadness and longing in me in order to feed both sides of myself that is at war. Or have explosive happy days one day and ridiculously bad days some other. Or love and hate someone at the same time… which will most likely be myself most of the time. I think I can live with that.

OK, first of all, I must say that Herve Leger is BLOWING UP! His bandage dresses are one everyone, from Lindsay Lohan, to Kim Kardashian and even Canadian VJ Leah Miller on the So You Think You can dance Canada version (the stunning red dress she was wearing on the last episode that I got a chance to see when I was in Toronto over the last weekend).

I was instantly obsessed with the cut-put dress that Blake Lively wore in Gossip Girl in the episode where Serena’s character wanted to have a 3 people date with Dan and his nerdy new love interest earlier on in the season.

So from Red Carpet Fashion, I found out that Herve Leger dresses are supposed to contour and shape your body strategically to make you look hotter. I would say yes it works.

My closest encounter with Leger was ‘touching’ one of his bandage dresses at a small boutique in Chicago’s Buck Town neighbourhood. Hehe. The dress was entirely silvery gray, like the gray in Serena’s dress above and it felt really heavy and coarse. I expected it to be light and shiny and a spandexy material, but instead it really did feel like giant elastic bandages stictched together. It looked plain on the rack but I’m sure it would have looked smoking hot if I had had the guts to try it on, in its nearly $2000 glory.

I could not have summed up the current love that Herve Leger is feeling better than this article by Red Carpet Fashion Awards: http://www.redcarpet-fashionawards.com/2007/10/celebrities-loveherve-leger.html

buy serena’s dress – http://www.net-a-porter.com/product/27397